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It’s amazing how easy it is to lose yourself in a whirlpool of sorrow. How every thought and feeling that comes to mind becomes corrupted, destroying what was once a beautiful and enlightening memory that now leaves nothing behind but an overwhelming blur of loss. Bathing in the pain, you can feel your heart slowly ripping apart as everything around you begins to crumble. You remain still amidst all the chaos, the voice inside your head screams at you, clawing it’s way to the surface as it drowns your mind with everything you don’t want to imagine. But on the outside your face remains blank, withered and distant. You’re breaking. I don’t know what you’re going through right now, or why, but whatever it is, I just hope it ends soon. Because I know you can feel the talons of a dark entrapping old friend digging their way into your soul, grasping so tightly it’s tainting your heart and mind. And with it’s malicious smile written all over it’s face, you’ve become it’s prey, engulfing you in it’s suffocating misery as it slowly drags you back into the all too familiar depths of the abyss.
The one person I need the most… is never there. And you know, dad, I wish hugging and holding onto my pillow helped as much as it used to like when I was a kid… but it doesn’t anymore. It just makes everything hurt more. And all I wanted when I called you… was for you to save me and take all of my pain away. You knew something was wrong, but I just didn’t know how to tell you.
You will never understand it… until it happens to you. And when it does… don’t come crying to me… when all you did was tell me to suck it up and act like it was nothing, because I’ll just return the favor. Little did you know that my whole world was falling apart, but you didn’t care enough to try and make it better. Instead, you lied to me and disappeared. But one day you will realize that it is indeed… not easy at all and you will completely break down. And when you do… you’ll have no one… just like I did.
Depression is the voice of the damned who quietly whispers in your ear; patiently waiting at the darkest parts of your mind. And at any given time, during your weakest points, it will emerge grasping you with its intoxicating presence. Clouding your thoughts, blurring your vision… slowly sucking the life out of you as it poisons your heart and mind… only to leave you condemned with a heavy conscience.